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i have friends in high places
3 min read
what is the purpose of life? doesn't this seem to be the question on everyone lips? had it never occured to anyone that maybe the purpose of life is not to question it? i was in a pretty good mood all day today despite being called into work 3 hours earlier. i saw a baby crocodile and i thought wow life must be simple for him, but then i thought this must be hell scary for him being out of his habitat in a shopping centre with all these eyes gawking at him and grubby kids hands touching his scaly skin - no wonder they had a rubber band around his jaw - if i was him i'd snap someones hand of just for the sake of it.
fascination. that's the key. we all get fascinated by something and it either sticks or it doesn't. if it does then sometimes i think we get a tad obsessed. why is it that we think of something for hours on end, but when it comes to the oppurtuinty to put your thoughts to actions - we freeze. because maybe the dream is better than the reality. what if we ruin what we already have? is it worth the risk to confess when you already have something good? sometimes we have to take that chance, make that leap of faith - don't settle for luke warm, if you want more then do it! and you know what if it doesnt work out if it gets worse than atleast you didn't waste your time dreaming over something not worth it.
please don't get it into your head that this blog is aimed at something particular in my life. it isn't. just when at work one's mind tends to wonder. myself. i am pretty content with life at the moment, that is untill school goes back. 3 tasks. not looking good. everything is always now now now, why can't we stop to enjoy the sunshine or just take a walk. that is something i've been doing lately, just grabbing my ipod and going for a walk, no destination just walking around untill you get back home again. my walks tend to get bigger and bigger, walks are good. another oppurtunity to think - but not worry. if you just keep walking nothing can touch you
fascination. that's the key. we all get fascinated by something and it either sticks or it doesn't. if it does then sometimes i think we get a tad obsessed. why is it that we think of something for hours on end, but when it comes to the oppurtuinty to put your thoughts to actions - we freeze. because maybe the dream is better than the reality. what if we ruin what we already have? is it worth the risk to confess when you already have something good? sometimes we have to take that chance, make that leap of faith - don't settle for luke warm, if you want more then do it! and you know what if it doesnt work out if it gets worse than atleast you didn't waste your time dreaming over something not worth it.
please don't get it into your head that this blog is aimed at something particular in my life. it isn't. just when at work one's mind tends to wonder. myself. i am pretty content with life at the moment, that is untill school goes back. 3 tasks. not looking good. everything is always now now now, why can't we stop to enjoy the sunshine or just take a walk. that is something i've been doing lately, just grabbing my ipod and going for a walk, no destination just walking around untill you get back home again. my walks tend to get bigger and bigger, walks are good. another oppurtunity to think - but not worry. if you just keep walking nothing can touch you
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i kept you tie
2 min read
honestly. sometimes i wonder why i bother! why bother????!!!?? its useless. absolutely useless!! i'm pissed of about my artwork. i'm pissed off about everything! mainly because no no no bloggin about this crap.
but gahh no one reads this anyway so i'm going to have my rant!!
i feel like an idiot! an idiot i tell you!!
i mean what kind of sick joke are you trying to play on me god? cuz i'm not laughing!!!
why do i always do this to myself?? i'm too scared to say anything! but the unknown is killing me! making me sad! i shouldnt be sad! its stupid! which makes me mad!
do you even notice me?? NO. what is the use in this?! when am i finally going to get over this and take the plunge!
i want to fall. just fall keep falling forever... i went on the giant swing at camp! i want that free fall! where nothing else matters! fall fall falling falling then that feeling when it catches you. who is going to catch me?!?!
i can't deal with this. not now. i have too much to do. it's too much to handle. i'm making it seem worse than it is! this is not the end!
be brave
but gahh no one reads this anyway so i'm going to have my rant!!
i feel like an idiot! an idiot i tell you!!
i mean what kind of sick joke are you trying to play on me god? cuz i'm not laughing!!!
why do i always do this to myself?? i'm too scared to say anything! but the unknown is killing me! making me sad! i shouldnt be sad! its stupid! which makes me mad!
do you even notice me?? NO. what is the use in this?! when am i finally going to get over this and take the plunge!
i want to fall. just fall keep falling forever... i went on the giant swing at camp! i want that free fall! where nothing else matters! fall fall falling falling then that feeling when it catches you. who is going to catch me?!?!
i can't deal with this. not now. i have too much to do. it's too much to handle. i'm making it seem worse than it is! this is not the end!
be brave
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i could do almost anything to you
1 min read
A:i love moments
B:yeh moments where nothing else matters
A:exactly
and the things that make these moments memories are the things i love you know
like the sunshine, with a certain song, in a certain place
in a backseat of a car comming home from something
somewhere
B:bus rides. i have a lot of good bus memories
A:thats lovley
B:yeh not that they are worth much now
but at the time
A:at the time there the only thing in the world right? and some times at the time there so good that you even think about how good itll will be to remember this ? or is it just me
B:no i get that and then when its over you just keep thinking about it so it will never fade
B:yeh moments where nothing else matters
A:exactly
and the things that make these moments memories are the things i love you know
like the sunshine, with a certain song, in a certain place
in a backseat of a car comming home from something
somewhere
B:bus rides. i have a lot of good bus memories
A:thats lovley
B:yeh not that they are worth much now
but at the time
A:at the time there the only thing in the world right? and some times at the time there so good that you even think about how good itll will be to remember this ? or is it just me
B:no i get that and then when its over you just keep thinking about it so it will never fade
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Bloody Cat
1 min read
So i was about to write and say how pumped i am for year 11. To be able to put my all fully to art at school is going to be amazing. But then my cat. grrrrr. love her. walks over my keyboard submitting a blank journal! humph.
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